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January 2008
New Semester
on the entry of January 25, 2008
Oh highschool. Ya know, I love learning, and I like talking to people---sometimes. Lately however, well always really, people have been a stress for me. Certain people from my past, and people that I want to keep friendships up with but am finding it damn hard to do so. Friendships are hard to keep, and are very changeable. One day you're friends, the next you're aquaintances, then back to friends, then you don't even acknowledge eachother in the halls. Sometimes walking in the halls is really uncomfortable. It's like: Will I see that person? Damn I hope I don't. Will my friend say hi?... Oh look they didn't.I just need to keep the focus on my education.... I'll make real friends later on in life, only to lose them even later... Anyway, this has been a quick, pessimistic update of what is going on in my life. New classes basically.
IP Adresses Are Great For Stalkers
on the entry of January 14, 2008
Three new poems New article on Webdesign Changed the little image next to the title from a bunny to garlic boy (he can be found in the Illustrations page.Wow, so IP adresses are creepy. Honestly if you're online, you're pretty much throwing away your privacy. I'm sure you all know that people can find out where you live with your IP adress, right? Well it's news to me that people can see your house, with your IP adress. Seriously go to IP-Adress.com and type in your IP adress. Mine doesn't actually show where I live, but I typed in some of my visitors' IP adresses (you guys lol) and I saw some pretty close-up aerial views of their houses. Seriously try it. If you don't already know your IP adress the site shows you it.
Pointless 3:06 am revision: I realized that I really don't like the poems I put up, but I'll leave them up there in case I like them tomorrow, haha. I added another new thing by the way, a short, webdeisgn article... Goodbye, I'm going to go explore Writing.com, Pandora.com...and sleep. Before I go though, I'm gonna talk about my personal life for a second. I have the tendency to reject happiness, lack willpower, and dwell. Then I get better--then it's the same shit all over again. My boyfriend paraphrased one of the quotes on the quotes page unintentionally, and it really applied. So I'll leave you guys with the actual quote: "...We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same." -Joseph Addison
Layout, Help, Hairstyles, and Catch 22
on the entry of January 14, 2008
New layout, new pages under Lauren, and Lace New section under Visual: Hand Drawn Uploaded two new Graphics Did tons of other shitI refuse to believe that the last time I blogged was only 3 days ago. It feels like so much longer. Anyway, the new new layout is up, and I think I like it this time... I know it's kind of plain, but to me it's more about the colors, and ease of navigation this time. When you click on a link like 'Visual' for example, the Visual subpages will come up, when you click on one of those, the navigation goes over to the side bar. My boyfriend called it confusing, and I can see that, but I think it's pretty sweet. If you guys have any suggestions for this new layout, please don't hesitate to tell me. Critiques are welcome too.
I need help. I want to center my email form, on the Contact page, without centering the Name, Site, Email, Message labels. Does anyone know how I can do this?
This page is hilarious: Click; it has pictures of hairstyles that have gone out of style, or that some guy names Wolf designed. I'm not sure which. I dare you to click on 'Half Shaved'. I actually find it creepy, and I don't think a lot is creepy.
Oh yeah. Have you guys ever heard of Catch 22? I just finished reading it for my Modern Lit. class. The beginning was so confusing I was sure the book would be a struggle, but it was awesome. So so awesome. I recommend it to all of you.
New Layout
on the entry of January 11, 2008
Thanks for all the comments everyone. I put up a different layout; the flower one was too something for me... As you can see the site is severely under construction, but I decided to leave it open as I work on it. If you don't think my site looks like it's under construction, start clicking around, and you'll soon find out. lol.
New Layout
on the entry of January 6, 2008
No time to blog. New layout up. Have work to do on the header. Sorry if things are a bit messy. So much to do online and in RL.
Self Torture
on the entry of January 5, 2008
I'm mentally torturing myself and I don't know how to stop it. I don't even think I have the will power to stop it. Actually I know for a fact that my will power is limited. I'm torturing myself by dwelling on the past. On people I've lost. People who left me. UGH. It's keeping me from being happy, and it's driving me insane. I always dwell like this; always get obsessed with one thing. I hate that one thing, I wanna stab it in the face and see it rip like paper... but I don't hate that thing. No, not at all. I hate myself for not allowing myself to be happy. Why do I keep rejecting the beautiful person I have in my life? Is it because when it comes down to it, that person truly isn't right? Or is it because of those stupid thoughts that won't go away? I think it's the latter, because I do randomly feel like the person is so right. I hope it's the latter. The other problem is that I am insecure. I can't let myself be loved. Why? Why can't I let myself believe in love. And why do I rip people apart in my mind. Including myself. These are just a couple of the things that trouble me on an everyday basis. Yay.
